A Baby Book for Little Angels

I just wanted to share with everyone a book that I just recently published.





My name is Michelle Murray, and I am the bereaved mother of Tyler Jason, who passed away in March 2006 as a result of Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS). He is my inspiration and the one person who has changed my life forever. He has made me who I am today and he was also the reason that I have started up a side business in his memory. Wanting to have a proper baby book for him that would serve as a memorial of his short life, I decided to create and self-publish.

"I Will Hold You In My Heart Forever - A Baby Book for Little Angels."

I created this book because I have since had two healthy daughter's and while filling out their baby books I was heartbroken that I did not have a special baby book for my son. I searched everywhere and could not find a baby book for babies that have died. It was released this past June. Currently I have over 1400 fans on Facebook and I have sold all over the world including, Australia, Ireland, USA etc. I created a webpage for my book and it can also be found for sale in the gift shop at Sick Children's Hospital in Toronto, Ontario.

You can see more info on my website at www.foreverheart.ca

This book is for any family who has experienced miscarriage, stillbirth or infant death. I have had a lot of compliments on it and people have been really happy with their purchase.

My heart goes out to everyone who has a lost a child. My son was seven weeks old when he died.

Michelle

Happy Birthday Tyler!

I can't believe Tyler would have been 4 years old today. It just does not seem like it should be that long ago. I know I now have 2 beautiful healthy daughters but I still miss my son. I think about him almost everyday.





Happy Birthday my Baby Boy!


Tonight we will be taking Kendra and Jocelyn up to the grave site to let some birthday balloons go for the Brother that they never met. One day I am sure they will ask questions about him and I will tell them everything they want to know.




























I will love you forever,
I will like you for always,
As long as I'm living,
My baby you'll be.


Love Your Mommy,

Michelle

My Son Tyler

Well, it's New Years day today and this is my first blog ever.

My topics are going to be on Infant Loss because I am a Mother who lost a baby when he was only 7 weeks old. I am not an expert on Grief by any means, I'm just a Mother who has traveled the journey of Grief and have come out the other side. It has been almost 4 years since he died and I absolutely love talking about him. He was my first born, and my only son.


We named him Tyler.











I found out about Tyler's heart condition when I was 18 weeks pregnant. It came as a shock when my Midwife called me up to give me the Ultrasound report and asked that my husband Jason pick up a phone as well. We got the news together. Tyler had Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS) The simple explanation is that he only developed a Right side of the heart and not a Left side. The sad thing was that the Left side was not going to grow as my pregnancy continued. We were given 4 options.

1) Terminate the Pregnancy
2) Go full term, give birth then take him home and watch him die
3) Heart Transplant
4) Or 3 stage Surgery option

We chose surgery..
Tyler had his first open heart surgery done when he was only 5 days old at Sick Kids Hospital. We remained vigil at his side daily. There was many ups and downs and we were always waiting for the next shoe to drop but he made it through. After 4 weeks of being in the hospital he was allowed to go home. His next surgery was supposed to be when he was 6 months old.
He never made it that far.


We had 3 weeks with him at home. I took him shopping, he got to see family, he smiled, for all intense purposes he was a happy baby. He did have some feeding issues and required daily medication regardless to say that needles and NG tubes became a part of our routine.
At exactly 7 weeks, a Saturday morning I will relive again and again. My son Tyler stopped breathing in my arms.

911 was called but there was nothing anyone could do, he was gone.

My baby boy Tyler, I will hold you in my heart forever............

Your Mommy,
Michelle